this xanga entry is.....

only because I decided I'm God. or some other divinity.

I was going to take a picture, as proof, of what I created, but...my camera decided to take my mom to germany this week, so it's  on vacation without me.

anyway. you ask yourself, Katrin, I knew you were great always, but ... God? hmm. Why?

well children of the earth, I will tell you.

I Am God Because I Just Created The Best Food In The World.

and it only took about...3minutes.

I ate it in 2.

what was it, you ask?

well. I will tell you and you may spread the word, the good word, and thou shalt BRING FORTH THOU TASTE BUDS AND ENJOY! ENJOY I SAY, AS YOU HAVE NEVER ENJOYED BEFORE.......

ok well basically I took a piece of toast, stuck it in the toaster.  While it was in the toaster, I whipped out some goats cheese and some honey...and sliced the goats cheese into slices about 1/2 inch thick.  I put the honey upside down because, well, because we go to Cosco and get those huge honey things and it takes forever for it to get to the lid part.

the toaster popped, and I swung the goldendarkbrown piece of goodness on a fresh, clean plate.  Then I took the honey and squirted a good 2tablespoons on it.  Quickly spreading it, I savoured the smell of warm bread and sugar in my nostrils (haha nostrils. funny word) Then: I took the slices of cheese and stuck em on top.  I filled all the little gaps with crumbs left over of the cheese, so it was completely covered.

Then I ate it.  It was still warm, and I orgasmed probably more than I ever have in my entire life. Thats when I decided I was more than a mere human.  I created...heaven.

man.  I'm good.

what a depressing morning. or is it comfortable?  maybe both...

I woke up and it was raining outside (first thought was, shit I left the cushions outside)(yes, they are soaking wet now).  it's gray and ...gray...and quiet and rainy.   I took a shower, goodbyed my friend, and changed into my smurfclothes... sweatpants, hoody, etc   then I went downstairs, put the Beatles Greatest Hits in, and brewed myself some Earl Gray....mmmh. 

sounds nice, doesnt it?  except....I'm alone.  so there's the depressing part. this is a perfect cuddling and such morning... man.  I guess I am a little girl still, but I would like my mom here, she's comfortable.  and I dont really care what you say about that, because I love her and... miss her.

Last night.....hmm last night was a little crazy, no? some kids came over in the afternoon, and we.....called around a lot, hahaha, umm, watched some of Nightmare Before Christmas, and then more kids came.  We hung out on my deck for a while  and then went to "Corpse Bride."  What a disappointing movie.  It was totally lacking, even ...in the state of mind we were in, I was greatly disappointed.  That's too bad, too, because Nightmare and Big Fish and Beetlejuice, and Batman....well, they were great.  Corpse Bride....more on the mediocre.  bah.  waste of my hard earned money, really. 

sooo we came back to my house.... and umm more people came?  I had some cereal in between haha and.... we hung out on my deck some more....  i dont know.  at one point they left...for the most part. wow. probably shouldnt try to remember more. except...

"its like between school girl drunk and jimi hendrix on acid drunk!!"

there were more.  what were they? ahhh Smokers Dilemna. man.

anyway, I had fun.  Today..dunno what I'll do.

I woke up and when I wanted to get into my shower, i noticed this big handprint on my upper stomach...it was so weird, it wasnt like an imprint, it was just a red mark of all my fingers and everything.

anyway. i should go, fucking salescalls man.

ok I guess it's time to update if i want to keep this thing alive...

just wanted to say that i had a rather fantastic weekend, for the most part....with incredibly strange dreams/nights....

on Friday, while I was reading the Metamorphosis (by Franz Kafka, another awesome German), I was lying on my bed, on my back, with my little stuffed animal in one arm and the book in the other hand.... and just read....  and all of the sudden, for no particular reason whatsoever, I decided to turn around, as in onto my side. 

and that's when I saw it....

.... all this time, while I was reading about a man turned into a bug, I had been SQUISHING ONE with my very own body....oh how gross.... absolutely disgusting.  so there were little bug parts all over my (clean) sheets......

and I jumped up and started screaming, girly as I can be, but it was okay...since there was no one else in the hizzouse.   if you've read the metamorphosis, I think (or hope) that you can see where I'm coming from. I've never felt so ... bad about squishing a bug my whole life, except when I killed my pet bug that one time...

later that night I had a dream... in that dream i was going to go out and ride my bike, but my aunt was like, "be careful, theres supposed to be a lot of flying snakes out today" so I was like psh yeah whatever I'm badass on my bike.  so I start pedalling, i'm going through some really rural area on a little dirt path with fields of gold and trees surrounding me.  Weirdly enough, there were lots of snakes all over the place, big ones, small ones, strange ones....but none of them were flying...until i looked up into the trees....and there they were, flying from one to the next, kind of tying their tails to branches and then catapulting themselves across the sky.  Cool, I thought to myself as I pedalled on....

at one point I looked to the right and I saw these two walrusses. and I was like hey look. walrusses. and they saw me and were like ok lets give her a show. and started having sex.  I kind of looked for a while (no I'm not a pervert)(I swear) and instead of being completely taken aback by these to sea creatures having sex for me in the middle of a golden field, all I could think was, "damn, I never have my camera when I really need it..."

it kept going, with huge beds and huge snakes (not trouser snakes mind you) .... lots of....strange things.

just thought I should share that with you.

I know what you're thinking, "lay of the drugs, girl."

well screw you

kat

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On Friday night, after work, I came home and my dad was like, I waited to watch this movie with you, do you want to watch it? and i said sure, not knowing what to expect... 

the movie was called "The Panama Deception."  I dont know if any of you are familiar with the Panama invasion in 1989 (jon?) but, well, I wasnt.  Watching that movie made me so upset... it put my opinion in a completely new perspective.  What they did to Panama is the same thing they did with Nicaragua, the same thing they're doing now with Iraq, and have done and will be doing to many many other nations.  It sickens me.  It's like a game to them!

The operation was called Operation Just Cause.  Is the administration trying to be blatant?

I found a link to a website that kind of gives the idea to the movie...I recommend looking at it, you may not think that it was a big deal, it was 16 years ago, not many americans died....well.... hahah in that case especially you should look at the link.  it's depressing.

http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article4078.htm

I went to bed crying on friday.  I ... havent been this upset in a long time.  Those bastards (aka George H.W. Bush &co.) are lying through their teeth, deceiving the people of the United States, KNOWINGLY, I mean, they dont even care whether or not they're telling the truth! I feel bad for dumb people, as general and stereotypical as it sounds, but most people that dont think for themselves will listen to their leader, believe every word he says and put all of their trust into him, THINKING HE WOULD TELL HIS PEOPLE THE TRUTH.  and it's the same thing now!!!!! People just can't see it! people are too dense to realize what's really going on!

but then again, maybe I should shut my mouth, since, as someone made clear to my mother the other day, my family is just a bunch foreignors and we have no idea what we're talking about, regarding us politics.  We should just be grateful to live here and shut our mouths.  or else we'll be abusing our right to free speech, right???

katrin.